I've moved out, but I'm staying in Monterey. This was a difficult choice to make. Essentially, I had 3 options: move near my parents (or in with them), move to another city where I could see myself settling down permanently, or stay here and try to make a life out of the pieces I already have. The truth is that I like it here. I'm tired of moving, and I could see Monterey being a permanent home. If in 6 months or a year, I don't feel like I'm thriving, then I can reconsider, but I'll enjoy it while I can.
If there's a bright side, it's all the support I've received from family and friends. I've even strengthened some friendships over the past couple weeks. I suppose I was worried that people would scorn me or distance themselves from me, but I think the opposite has been true. Even my boss at the college was kind and happily gave me two classes to teach in the fall and a summer class. All of this has given me hope that I can pick up these pieces and keep on going.
There's so much more to say, but I'll leave it at that for now. Thank you for reading.